Sunday, 15 May 2011
Rupster says " About When is The End?"
With everything that is going on, there is no peace in mind. They said it easily, push everything to a side and focus but its always easier said that done. Not much improvement is seen. Its just been the same. No one is moving. And the one stuck in the middle is still very much stuck and is grasping for as much air as possible!
Why on earth all these would ever happen in this world? WHY? Though its not been the first time, but the second one was not at all looked forward to and never expected it to happen. Its been a bad one this time around. Everyone is wondering of the next step. But when that thing called EGO is the biggest obstacle, what is there to help other than we ourselves!
Hating everything that is happening now. Never want to turn back and look at this dark chapter in the future. This could be the biggest lesson in life but this is one of the hated lessons ever!
How long more would it took to get better?
How long more is the wait for?
How big can that word called EGO grow from now?
Lucky thing there is exams to divert the mind away. How much would it divert not sure but hopefully it would help as much as possible.
Can't wait for this UGLY chapter to end and never come back for ever!
Saturday, 7 May 2011
Rupster says " About the not so Good Things"
Dont know what is going to happen. This uses up so much of emotions and could just drive you mad. Worst still when you are stuck in the middle and dont know what on earth to do. How much tears has involved. But tears is never the answer.
Not everyone can help but ourselves. As much as we try we hope it is going to be better. There are people trying to help work things out. Hopefully its going to bare a fruit soon. The others can only listen and share their support.
To those of you who have been helping us get through this thank you so much! No words can show how much gratitude we have towards you. And for the dear friends, thank you so much for lending your shoulder's to lean on to cry and talk things out. Thank you so much for all the advices. Hoping everything will turn back to normal very very soon!
Thank you for all the love. Thank you for all the support!
Rupster will recover and come back for the better.
Sunday, 3 January 2010
Rupster says " About the December Recap"
Every phase of 2009 has been a learning experience. As tough as it could be, family and friends were always there to throw out their support and encouragement to continue with all the demanding battles. So much of family gatherings, friends reunions, and lots more of fun and sorrow.
Classes for 2009 amazingly sailed through very well. Results? Were as expected. But still could do better just by aiming higher. Finishing group assignments were never that easy but that is what Rupster loves the most. The most important secret is we got to learn and tolerate. Give and take should always be there. Try being in the shoes of your group member. Help them as much as you could. And the results would be AMAZING.
For family, there were so many happenings. Many many gatherings. A few deaths. A few weddings. A few births as well. Yes. The family is very much expending. That is because everyone is in the age of marriage. Thus, definately there are many additions to the family. Family disputes? What is a family without any disputes. Its all about give and take. If you get yourself in it. Find a way out, talk things out and definitely it is all done. If you are unhappy, say it out. Family is all about understanding. There is no point having disputes because the world is too small and at the end of the day, family still comes number 1. No matter how bad the situation could be, 1 day or rather we would face each other back. Despite what ever disputes you have with each other always remember to show up and show your support where ever needed. Though you've been ignored just be there. It may be their day today, you'll never know when your time is to come. Believe and trust in Karma.
Friends had really played quite a big role to Rupster too this year. Like Rupster had mentioned earlier, it has been quite a year. They have been there throughout though we have been having our internal issues. But still, at the end of the day we all unite as one. Many old and long lost friends had also come back to the circle. Some have been away for years and they finally made their way back to the circle. As friends we accept them open kindheartedly. Not forgetting even their other half's have also joined the clan. Now planning fro outings have been a bit difficult due to the large number. But we still get to accommodate almost everyone. Like the ones that have come in, some have even left. They choose to leave thus we cant stop them. If they do decide to come back, there are very much welcomed back.
Its been a year of new people venturing into each and everyone's life. All that can be done for now and would be done is to cherish each and every single person you have around you. Love them with all your heart. Understand the people you are surrounded with.
Holidays has also been something that's always been looked forward too. Well Rupster does not only wait for holidays to go on trips but during the semesters also Rupster goes to places. 2009 was a year of covering up South of Malaysia. Not that Rupster has never ventured into the South part of Malaysia but it is the experience you get each time you go. Each time you go you see something new and learn great new stuffs as well. 2009 venturing was to Malacca, Johore, Port Dickson and towards the North would definitely be Penang and all its glorious food!
As for International, Rupster ventured to some parts of South India and as well as a little of Singapore. Being in India was one great experience by itself. Lots have been seen and many unanswered questions has been answered. Going for vacations is not only about relaxing the mind. But it is also the time that we get to spend time with family and friends. This is where we tend to learn more about each other and at the same time learn about places and its history as well.
A very knowledgeable year it has been. It has Rupster so much that now she knows who she could rely on when the time comes. People come and people go. We choose if want them in or want them out. After all, learning occurs all life long. There is no end to learning. You learn about life every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every month and every year. Its through all these teachings that we determine how we want our life to be. There is no pint on depending on people because they could just ditch you along the way and say 'I don't know you. Why should i help you". Not only a stranger would do that but also your very own loved family members and even friends.
No matter what happens life still goes on. Those who choose to be with you will definately be with you. Lets those who have left leave. If they choose to come back they are very much welcomed.
That's the round up for 2009. Hope 2010 would be an interesting journey to sail into.
Monday, 2 March 2009
Rupster says "About February"
There goes the second month of the year and we moved on to the third month of the year...Like January, February was also filled with so much of activities...
If there's activities, than for sure it would had been full of fun.
It was basically another month like how January was.
February also marked the month were most of us were going back to school after a long break. Australian based universities resumed classes at the end of the month. Thus, Salveen too flew back to Aussie.

Like the first time, it was really hard to blend in Rupster that she was not going to be around for another few more months!!! Thank god there is technology today that enables us to keep in touch much easier...
Leaving the month update aside,
Rupster wonders why is it sometimes so hard to leave or walk away from things. Walking away is never a good option but sometimes some issues just need to be pusjed aside to overcome it. Is that why people these days get into smoking,drugs and aloholism to divert thier minds away?
But till this very day Rupster beleives that all those are never the right way to overcome stress. Its most probably psychological effect to them because they think by having those, problems will be pushed aside...
So why do people take that as an alternative to thier problems?
Though so much fun has happen in the last 2 months, Rupster has also been doing so much of thinking...
Things have been so complicated but Rupster has been depending on past memories to make sure that things are not so complicated. Thus, Rupster came to a decision to start moving on. The decison has been made but the implimantation of the decision has not been easy.
Rupster wonders how long would it take??? Till than what should be done???
Even though Rupster has decided to move on but those things are still so fresh in mind that sometimes makes Rupster wonder if the desion to move on is the right step or not.
On a brighter side, moving on would mean things will not be as weired as it has been for the past few weeks. Things will not get back to be like how it was at the very start but atleast it would not be as weired as it was.
The decision has also been said out and hopefully things will get back to normal like how it used to be. It may be hard but we got to work hard to getthings back straight again. Rupster knows that and relises somethings done may have hurt and touched the feelings but BELEIVE Rupster please that all the things done were not on purpose!!!
It was alll unintentionally done due to the situation and the complicated mind of Rupster. Apology has also been extended and will still be extended..Rupster is very very SORRY for what ever that has been said and done!!!
That desicion had to be made to get back things like how it used to be. It would be hard but there is no other choice that can be looked at. Though the move on desicion has been taken, thus Rupster needs to start working on the implemantation steps ASAP!!!
There is alwasy a regret at the end of the day for doin all those hurting words but the mind was to complicated that cased all that!!!
And the regret of behaving like that would always be deep down in the heart as a reminder on not to repeat those sarcasm ever again....
Monday, 23 February 2009
Rupster says "About the holidays"
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Rupster is extremely lucky because most of the friends are actually doing Australian degrees in which we all have the almost same amount of holidays at the same time. Besides that it was also the month of December where most local university's also have their holidays. This was a very good opportunity for all of us to meet up often and spend lots of time together.
I has also enabled us to meet back long lost friends whom we never really kept in touch and some of them whom we hardly spoke to in school. Today, Rupster is so glad to meet back some old friends that she never really got to sit and talk to way back in school.
This holidays has also taught Rupster so much on what life can be like. After the whole long incident of last year, probably this was the time Rupster was waiting for all the while.
Lots of great things had happend ever since the new year started and all those memories will keep Rupster goin for a very long time. Some of them Rupster just did think would happen but it all actually happened. Though some of it did not and will not last for a very long time but at the end of the day, it has kept Rupster smilling on untill this very day.
Those were the feelings that would never leave you until the day you decide to leave it or even on the day ypu decide to leave it, there is always a possibility that one day or rather you would still sit and think of all those good and valuable memories.
Sometimes you just wished you could stop the clock so that it does not continue to tick and end the day for a new start. But there is no way for that. Hence, for every start there's always an end to it. The end could either be the very next moment,minute,hour,day,week,month or even years.
Well Rupster was asked not to wait. But Rupster thinks there is no harm in waiting. Is Rupster right or wrong? Will the wait make Rupster stronger or weaker?
To get over 1 part took Rupster more than 5 YEARS....thus in this Rupster does not know how long its going to be but Rupster knows for sure everything happens for a reason. If there is no happy ending to it friends would always remain as friends.
Thanks for being so understanding. All Rupster need now is time. And you have given Rupster all the time given. Will try to full fill what you had asked but no promises yea..haha....but if Rupster has ever hurt you...im very sorry aite...
The 3 months of long holidays will oficially come to an end today and a brand new semester has been all lined of from tomorow onwards....
Saturday, 3 January 2009
Rupster says "Happy New Year 2009"
May this year bring lots of happiness to each and every person in the world created by the ALMIGHTY...
Lets all leave the past and venture into the future that will be installed as each day is born. At the same time use the past as a lesson as we venture the world..
Hence,lets see what Rupster can learn from the whole of 2008.Lets look at a review of 2008
The year stated of with a bomb as usual...started of the final semester with taylors which also meant the last few months at that campus coz Rupster was very sure Degree was no longer going to be there.
As months went on it was getting from bad to worst.As the geng said it was a year filled with so much JIWANGness.


Minus all the jiwangness and looking at the broghter side,2008 has also been a year filled with so many parties!!! Which means its also reunion time!!!
Gathering also means FOOD!!! So much of food tasting has been done and so far it all has been way too good!!!
2008 has also brought in new friendships, old freisndships, and still building the current ones even more much stronger.It was also the year that Rupster finally got to go back to Kuching and atleast meet 2 of the friends there. It was a great trip that would not be forgotten in a very long time. Great experiences that we would not have got if we did not plan to land in that part of MALAYSIA
It was also a year that Rupster got a brand new look =)
As a whole...it could have been a BAD year but it was equally a GOOD long year!!!
Lets hope 2009 would bring more cheers and joy to everyone =)
Friday, 3 October 2008
Rupster says "About September"
What has the world achieved in the past month or rather what has Rupster done in that 9th month of the year.As usual the month was filled with lots of ups and also downs. At the same it was also another month that could be considered a fun month.
Very few birthdays but with the existing ones was enough to cover a few actually*read previouse entries for details* ;)
The month was also filled with STRESS!!!! There was just too many things that came crashing down all at the same time *sob sob*...
Yet the month was a great ride of a ROLLER-COASTER =)
Wonder what is filled in the 10th month.....
Tuesday, 9 September 2008
Rupster says "About looking forward"
First of there would be a big SURPRISE in the Singham's household for this Saturday. Everything has been a TOP SECRET so far. Have to ADMIT though, that everything is a very last minute planning *as usual*. Hence, its only between the geng BUT still the working team has lots of work to do. That is based on past EXPERIANCE by the very small team of 4.
This time, the team is even SMALLER but everything is going to be very FINE and the Saturday is going to turn out to be one of the greatest though its happening for the very first time in the Singham's household. As to that lots of running around has to be done, tonnes of phone calls, and SHOPPING for all the suffs needed.
It would be a tiring day just wait for the next few entries and find out what the whole things is going to be about ;)
The festive season is also almost here and thats another thing to look forward to.
And in DECEMBER its :
Yeap...RUPSTER is FLYING off after 3 years with the family and the usual geng for our 1st flying vacation. Everything has been confirmed. 10 people is boarding that plane and the DESTINATION is.......
Before the destination is named, let Rupster give some clues.
Rupster is very EXCITED for this vacation because its going to give a lot of memories though its for only 3 days. It's also going to bring back way too many memories when Rupster steps on to that LAND.
Everyone is going there without any high expectation BUT Rupster will not.
BECAUSE?
Rupster has already a rough idea on what to EXPECT. Rupster's contact are every ready to kidnap Rupster away from the group *yeap,holiday DILEMA* ..but never mind it would be ok!!!
Rupster is already counting the days due to excitement and cant wait to see the "people" of the land.
And the DESTINATION??
~NO REVEALING ~
Saturday, 6 September 2008
Rupster says "About August"
And the usual family Birthday dinner
Yeah 1 day with 2 birthdays..Ruspter's mom and cousin brother shares the same birthday date...and that is also 1 reason why thry can get along very WELL!!!! We call them the 28 people..lol....
BIRTHDAYS = GOOD FOOD and CAKES too!!!;)
Cake on August 1st
Cake for August 28th....
And the other cake for August 28th too...
Thursday, 21 August 2008
Rupster says "About the KTM ride"
By now some of you would have known what this post is going to be about.
Its been 4 weeks since i joined school back after being on a break for almost 2 months. Rupster in no longer a Taylorian but is now a Metropolitanner. Rupster is in Metropolitan doing a Double Degree in Marketing and Management by Curtin University. It would be a 3 year programme with 6 semesters.
The environment in Taylor's was never like a campus because its was mostly based on office environment. Classrooms were like the same when like how how our tution centers used to be during school. Atleast Taylor's did have 3 Lecture Hall's. Of course the main campus was not like that. It was equipped with all the facilities. Our bad luck the School of Communication was located away from the main campus. On the brighter side, the Bali Campus had lots of variety of food!!! Untill we could not decide what we should eat *sigh*miss those days*.
Well everything in this world has its own pros' and cons'.
Taylors Bali Campus now turns out to be past memories. Now the journey continues in Metropolitan and in the KTM train AGAIN!!!!.
Before the first week of class we had our rather short Orientation Day. The moment Rupster steps into the ecture hall the first WOW comes out!!!! And what is that WOW for??? The Lecture Hall is so dame huge!!! Capacity..hmmm may reach a 500 maybe!!! But this intake there were around 60 of us maybe and till TODAY not everyone knows each other but its IMPROVING day by day ;)
Classes has been goin as usual for the past 4 weeks and Rupster in enjoying all the lectures because of the Lecture Hall :)..Even tutorial classes are not so bif with apoximetly 20 students per class..So its not that bad after all.
Food selection is not as good as Bali though Asia Cafe is just down the road and even Metropolitan has thier own canteen food too. Have not been eating there that much and its just 4 weeks of collge and everyone is already teling "whoaa you lost so much weight"..Rupster has no comments for that just read further down and find out why.
Travelling???
Yeap..travelling all over again in the KTM but not much difference because its just 1 station away from the previouse station. Than from the staition its suppose to be a cabbie ride. The cabbes have fixed rate at either RM 3,4,5 or sumtimes even 6!!!!*now you know where all my eating money goes to* *sigh*. There is suppose to be bus service but Rupster is yet to use the service neither saw which bust is suppose to be taken;)
Other than that Rupster has nothing much to cokmplain about the travelling issue minus the money part because travelling has always been a norm in the world of Rupster.
Rupster had planned to write so much but nothing seems to be comming out as this entry is being typed out!!
More update later!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 10 August 2008
Rupster says "About the 21st Birthday Bash - Part 2"
Monday, 4 August 2008
Rupster says "About July"
JULY has always been the month that Rupster always looked forward to!!! 2007 July has really been a very long month though. It started of with Sal leaving to Aussie and after she left,Rupster fell sick. Than everyone started screaming for Rupster to get well before the very last minute planned 21st birthday bash *details of the bash in the last and more to come in the next entry*.
It may have been a SICKLY cum CELEBRATING month but after all that a Rupster's Roller-Coaster life!!! Meeting almost the whole family was something that i always looked forward to and it happened in this very month of JULY...
This was the very month that Rupster had to OFFICIALLY go back to school for the 3 years double degree programme in Marketing and Management by Curtin University at Metropolitan *updates of new college life is coming soon too*
A great month with great stuff happening around...Hope AUGUST turns out to be a BOMB to because its BACK TO SCHOOL for RUPSTER...
More news SOON!!!!
Monday, 9 June 2008
Rupster says "Updates"
a) 2nd Penang Trip
b) The many Rounds to Mid Valley
c ) Birthday Parties
d) May Summary
And here it goes....
a) 2nd Penang Trip
This trip was a really sudden trip by dad and the geng. Which means it was the 2nd trip for to Penang in less than 1 month. Hence, it was more food time. We were there for 3 long days. Walking around the town. Trying the many types of food *yea more food*. Visiting places that we never went before in Penang. We stayed at the Bank Negara Penthouse and I HAVE to say that the Penthouse was really huge. The Penthouse was located in the Bank Negara building itself which means we were staying above MONEY!!!! The house was so huge that we actualli needed to our phones to find out where the other person was. Walking in the house was way too tiring!!!
The panorama from the balcony was just too magnificent and no words can describe it than you seeing it for yourself. We could see almost the whole of Penang. At one corner was all building,hills and trees. On the other side was just the SEA and ships. At night the ships were so beautifully decorated. We even had the chance to look closer into the ship with our binoculars.
It was not only we got a great magnificent view from the Penthouse alone, but also at Bukit Bendera. We have been to Penang for a few times now but we never got the chance to go up Bukit Bendera.So this time we made it a must to go up Bukit Bendera and see what was there.
The tram ride was great. Though it was slow, but it was not felt because of the panoramic view all the way up. So the whole long half an hour was spent looking at the greens that you can see in Penang. Even the weather was getting from warm to cold. Not too cold though but the wind brought and entirely new feeling to it.
Just before we left Penang, we took so many group pictures at the balcony a the background was the sea.
Thats the end for the 2nd trip of Penang. There was more to it but it has to cut short to give way for the next subject.
b) The many Rounds to Mid Valley
Its actually been a long time since I last went to Mid Valley. I think i have paid it back by going there every alternate days last week. It was the Indian Global Exhibition 2008. I had to take different people at different time. That is the cause I was there very often. Though i went there so often, i never really bought much. I only manage to find a Punjabi suit. Other than that all I bought were accessories. Was looking forward to get another saree but did not manage to find something that attracted me much. If it did also, it was almost the same colours that I already have. So it was a big NO-NO.
c ) Birthday Parties
End of May until December starts the BIRTHDAY season. Starting the season on was Prem. We headed for Bangsar in the evening to let the birthday girl get her birthday suit. Than we carried on the usual Kandiah family tradition of celebrating a birthday with the whole family. We headed to our usual spot at Segambut for dinner and the cake cutting ceremony.
Than last weekend was 21st Birthday bashes. It started of on Saturday by us doing a surprise birthday part for Sunitha at Sha's place. It was only the six of us but the night was a bomb!!! We had so much fun and only went to bed at about 5 o'clock in the morning.
Sunday was another party that we organized for Thulasi. We headed to TGIF at the Curve. She had a Flaming as 21st started of. Than the waiters came over with the cake. Made a give a speech, sing a song and blow her candles from quite a distance. Than the waiters of TGIF sang a song that was really loud and so much fun. For the 1st time i reached home at 1 am after a night out with my friends. It was late because we could only cut Thul's as the clock stroked 12.
and finally...
d) May Summary
May this year had brought me many fond memories. I finished my final semester of Diploma hoping that i would not have to repeat any more subjects. Went twice to Penang with different groups of people. Going with only your friends makes you to realize how one day you'll have to stand on your own in another place without the guidance of the family. How you plan he budgets, learn to ask more when you don't know how to get to places, and also more discoveries of yourself. Family outings allows you to get the bonding time. As usual there was the normal family gathering and as well as sessions out with friends.
May has also made me wonder and think ahead about future undertakings. Though I was not able to decide anything because I don't have my results yet. Which means, I had to have a wide range of possibilities. This was also the month that i found out and confirmed that i was FINALLY a DIPLOMA GRADUATE. Yea...results were actually released at the end of the month. I always looked at my Diploma like a any other foundation course until my results were out when family and friends started congratulating me.
I was so curious why were people so excited when it was only a DIPLOMA. Untill someone told me "it is not that easy to get a Diploma". "You should be lucky that you finally have a cert in your hand today". That was the moment that mad me realise how important it was. It did not come with any easy work. It did come with a lot of hard work though I feel I did not really give in my full abilities. Went through so much of crap,shit,fights,tears,sleepless nights,and nightmares. I guess it was all healed with the word of JOY than came behind of each and everycrap,shit,fights,tears,sleepless nights,and nightmares. The support that was given by family and friends.
That would be a great inspiration for me to get to the next step which is the Degree level. May has also created new friends for me. Enlarging the contact list as well as seeing a different perspective of people.
Thats all for this update...wait for more...